I HAVE CONFIDENCE IN ME

What will this day be like?
I wonder
What will my future be?
I wonder
It could be so exciting
To be out in the world
To be free
My heart should be wildly rejoicing
Oh what's the matter with me?

I've always longed for adventure
To do the things I've never dared
Now here i'm facing adventure
Then why am I so scared?

Oh I must stop all these doubts
All these worries
If I don't i just know i'll turn back
I must dream of the things I am seeking
I am seeking the courage I lack

(...)

With each step I am more certain
Everything will turn out fine
I have confidence the world can all be mine
They'll have to agree I have confidence in me

I have confidence in sunshine
I have confidence in rain
I have confidence that spring will come again
Besides what you see I have confidence in me!

Strength doesn't lie in numbers
Strength doesn't lie in wealth
Strength lies in nights of peaceful slumber
When you wake up
Wake up!
It's healthy!

All I trust I give my heart to
All I trust becomes my own
I have confidence in confidence alone
Besides which you see I have confidence
In me!!!!!!!!!!!!

Julie Andrews, Sounds of Music.

BIOS

Bios is Basic input/output system, the bootstrapping chip on our neocortex. The waking every morning checking where, how, with what, with who, am I.
Bios identifies, organizes, sums up the pieces we count with, and sets us up ready and prepared.
Bios is becoming alive, and the programming lines that check the fact every now and then.

Biopsy, on the other hand, is the surgical procedure to check the functioning of isolated cells. And watch closely how the usual suspects are behaving.
Biopsy is also a bomb medical institutions drop in our lives, to give us a good scare and remind us how invaluable their services are to us, and how important we are to them.

Biopsy is disruption: you cut up, dye, and watch. The knife cuts not tissues, but rythm. They tell you you need a biopsy, so you panic and dismantle. Ok, so this is as far as I get. You get ready to part, as satisfied and joyful as you manage, and call your friends to give them instructions on where to spill your ashes.

So biopsy is the virus. Nobody should have to be told that the end is near... we should all be aware enough.

THE MIRROR -- REVISITED

Look closely at the mirror. Don't blurr what you see. Keep sharp. Don't be afraid. Don't judge. Don't analyze. Never argue or try to justify.

Tonight I fell into the mirror. The mirror you gave me. The one for the kitty to look into… remember?

So I travelled into it. And found your gaze.